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It really shouldn’t keep on surprising me but its always the small things that get to you most… and for once for me I’m not talking about the bad things.

Take today, I came through to Edinburgh (after driving there and back home on Friday, Saturday and Sunday - every time was worth it) for Andy’s game but I decided to drop something off at the Gorgie hall before hand. After not managing to get parked at the hall I parked round the corner and walked round only to see Kevin chasing after a duck (sorry, mallard) - for the full story see here, anyway it brought a smile to me, but it was just a small thing. I then had the blessing of being able to share, if only briefly, with friends before they went out on street work. Another small thing. A friend, for the umpteenth time tried to compliment me on my art, it was just a small thing but I did not receive it well (I tend not to take compliments well). Then in the wee hours after just managing to get home and not fall asleep while driving I get a text message from a couple of friends, it doesn’t matter the the who or what the message was just that, it was yet another small thing.

What am I trying to say? Simply that quite often it is that small thing, a text, a compliment, a hug, a word, anything can be magnified into something massive. Yes this applies to the negative but it also applies even more so to the positive.

But, there is another side to this, we have to embrace these positive little moment and brush off the negative, but all too often we get it the wrong way round. We brush off a compliment in a false sense of humility, we ignore the kindness behind a text. I must confess I do this too often, I am terrible at receiving compliments for a variety of reasons, most of them trivial and probably in the scheme of thing pointless and at the root egotistical in nature.

So to all you out there who have given me so many positive “small things” in the years, accept my apology if I have not taken it or seemed not to care, and also my thanks for taking the time, no matter if it seemed liked nothing, to do it.