::@:: Reality of Dreams ::@::

Wow, its really hard to believe that its been two years since I went to Japan… there is also an added level of poignancy, in some ways, to this anniversary as one of my friends is moving out to Japan with his wife (technically she is already there) in the next week or so to live and work.

So, yeah, two years… even looking back over this last year I have to admit my life has not quite gone the way I expected or wanted. Its been tough on me and my family as we struggle through where I am meant to be and trying to do what is right. Other issues have appeared through this year apart from just the normal job and finance worries, such as hitting 30. Many questions have arisen most of them difficult to answer and few of them have been answered. I find myself in a position where I can feel quite lost and unsure of where I am going and virtually at the same time sure that at least some of what I am doing is right… an annoying paradox.

There have been some amazing times this year such as Roots and really getting into my art, but the tough times have been hard and if I’m honest there are days where I am incredibly down and depressed and those days are hard, although thankfully my worst days are still few and far between. Yet rising above even the darkest time I am still incredibly aware how blessed i am to have the family and friends that I do.

So what is the easy sum up of the year, I don’t think this last year can be easily quantified as being either good or bad, or whatever. As time passes my, all be it brief, time in Japan becomes more and more just a memory and some experiences. It also becomes less and less a pivotal moment as far s the now is concerned… if that makes sense.

Here’s to another year and one that I am sure will continue to be… interesting